I look into this mirror,
Reflecting everything...
It's you it's me,
It's surely nothing.
We can't change what is,
We can only deny it.
And deny it we will,
Because we can't have it.
It's over, it never began.
It's over, before we ran.
And now I sit here thinking,
Of what possibilities could be.
Only to realize just that,
Things weren't meant to be...
Gemini, Pisces, these are we,
Evidence of bonds so bleak.
A doomed eternity for two,
Will only be expressed to me.
It's over, it never was.
It's over, there was never us.
And now I sit here thinking,
Of what possibilities could be.
It's best for all involved,
To let go, let love, and let it b
I have never felt better than when we slept in the same bed together
no matter the weather, if it was dry or if wetter,
you being there felt like a letter that wrapped me in a protected sweater.
But now you're gone, I can no longer sleep as it just feels wrong.
All this time I felt conned, like an innocent fawn who couldn't find the dawn.
But through this might and brawn, I managed to fight this feeling of being a pawn.
Now I search for sleep, even though around me I hear not even a peep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep, although this hill feels too steep.
I hope that He hears me weep and comes to sweep up this needy sheep off his feet.
Bu
I've heard stories told,
of true beauty behold.
I've weathered storms, cold.
Only to find what's old.
Is this the fate that I'm bound?
My treasure lost, never found?
When I hear the words, profound.
Did my ears ever hear sound?
Looking up to the sky,
Dreaming only to fly.
Will not know 'till I try,
Perhaps my love is nigh.
Hoping my time not lost,
We meet, but at what cost?
Has my heart turned frost?
The bridge burned that I crossed.
You're now outside my reach.
This barrier, no breech.
Turned away from your speech,
I won't hear what you preach.
My treasure always flaunted,
my heart always daunted,
Forever always haunted,
What I've alwa
Depencies, depends you see?
I sometimes believe that I cannot leave.
I wake up bored and think, "oh Lord",
Just to get up has become such a chore.
What do I think my life's become?
To think I'm meat that's over done?
To those around that can hear my sound,
I feel I'm square in a world that's round.
Do I have much left to give?
I feel like it's all I've got to live.
To give everything I have of me.
Do those around, in me, believe?
To those who feel they cannot cope,
To those who believe there is no hope.
To those who are riding in my boat,
To those who think this ship can't float.
I want you to know there is a way,
A way for those who bel
My delicate light, so soft and smooth,
Warms the skin and the soul.
Penetrates my being, it makes me move,
Rich and deep like gold.
The beauty of your light overwhelms me,
Takes me far away.
You and I alone on the fickle sea,
With you comes the day.
Someone has come and stolen my light,
You've been led astray.
Someday you'll return and make things right,
This is what I pray.
Even though I feel so alone,
My light's not far from home.
Because in my heart is found,
My light is homeward bound.
So I wait the best that I can,
In His will is His perfect plan.
Us together again once more,
Seeing you walk through my door.
A life, a love, and a memory.
A time, a thought, and a song to sing.
A friend, a kiss, what was meant to be.
Forgotten by you yet so precious to me.
A careless hi, and a how are you?
A hug to satisfy all that we knew.
Yet, now I walk away so blue.
I wish you knew my heart is true.
Goodbye for now.
I miss you still.
You've since forgotten,
That my love was real.
--Brian
10:14 PM 11/28/2006
Twisting words
just to say
that which was
already implied.
This is how I am.
Who I am standing here.
Naked, bare, open.
Hopelessly me.
Accept me or not.
My flaws falling
all around you.
Will you or
will you not?
What is the norm?
That which I need
to really conform?
Is that really me?
Is this where I
truly stop?
Do I keep going on
and on and on?
This is where I am.
Accept this or not.
This is who I am.
Hopelessly me.
2:05 AM 10/15/2006
When all feels lost and all hope is gone,
Remember that peace comes with the dawn.
When the storm of life comes down on you,
Look above and trust that you'll pull through.
Don't follow the path that fools have trod,
You'll soon realize that it comes from fraud.
When compromised your beliefs become,
Quite often, too late it is to run.
This is the warning that I declare,
for those who would stop, listen, and, hear;
I say, cease, desist, stop, resist.
Evil does not like to coexist.
Soon to be definitely betrayed,
Your heart is to be the one that's played.
There is never mercy, never love,
From the one who'd see you disposed of.
I look into this mirror,
Reflecting everything...
It's you it's me,
It's surely nothing.
We can't change what is,
We can only deny it.
And deny it we will,
Because we can't have it.
It's over, it never began.
It's over, before we ran.
And now I sit here thinking,
Of what possibilities could be.
Only to realize just that,
Things weren't meant to be...
Gemini, Pisces, these are we,
Evidence of bonds so bleak.
A doomed eternity for two,
Will only be expressed to me.
It's over, it never was.
It's over, there was never us.
And now I sit here thinking,
Of what possibilities could be.
It's best for all involved,
To let go, let love, and let it b
I have never felt better than when we slept in the same bed together
no matter the weather, if it was dry or if wetter,
you being there felt like a letter that wrapped me in a protected sweater.
But now you're gone, I can no longer sleep as it just feels wrong.
All this time I felt conned, like an innocent fawn who couldn't find the dawn.
But through this might and brawn, I managed to fight this feeling of being a pawn.
Now I search for sleep, even though around me I hear not even a peep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep, although this hill feels too steep.
I hope that He hears me weep and comes to sweep up this needy sheep off his feet.
Bu
I've heard stories told,
of true beauty behold.
I've weathered storms, cold.
Only to find what's old.
Is this the fate that I'm bound?
My treasure lost, never found?
When I hear the words, profound.
Did my ears ever hear sound?
Looking up to the sky,
Dreaming only to fly.
Will not know 'till I try,
Perhaps my love is nigh.
Hoping my time not lost,
We meet, but at what cost?
Has my heart turned frost?
The bridge burned that I crossed.
You're now outside my reach.
This barrier, no breech.
Turned away from your speech,
I won't hear what you preach.
My treasure always flaunted,
my heart always daunted,
Forever always haunted,
What I've alwa
Depencies, depends you see?
I sometimes believe that I cannot leave.
I wake up bored and think, "oh Lord",
Just to get up has become such a chore.
What do I think my life's become?
To think I'm meat that's over done?
To those around that can hear my sound,
I feel I'm square in a world that's round.
Do I have much left to give?
I feel like it's all I've got to live.
To give everything I have of me.
Do those around, in me, believe?
To those who feel they cannot cope,
To those who believe there is no hope.
To those who are riding in my boat,
To those who think this ship can't float.
I want you to know there is a way,
A way for those who bel
My delicate light, so soft and smooth,
Warms the skin and the soul.
Penetrates my being, it makes me move,
Rich and deep like gold.
The beauty of your light overwhelms me,
Takes me far away.
You and I alone on the fickle sea,
With you comes the day.
Someone has come and stolen my light,
You've been led astray.
Someday you'll return and make things right,
This is what I pray.
Even though I feel so alone,
My light's not far from home.
Because in my heart is found,
My light is homeward bound.
So I wait the best that I can,
In His will is His perfect plan.
Us together again once more,
Seeing you walk through my door.
A life, a love, and a memory.
A time, a thought, and a song to sing.
A friend, a kiss, what was meant to be.
Forgotten by you yet so precious to me.
A careless hi, and a how are you?
A hug to satisfy all that we knew.
Yet, now I walk away so blue.
I wish you knew my heart is true.
Goodbye for now.
I miss you still.
You've since forgotten,
That my love was real.
--Brian
10:14 PM 11/28/2006
Twisting words
just to say
that which was
already implied.
This is how I am.
Who I am standing here.
Naked, bare, open.
Hopelessly me.
Accept me or not.
My flaws falling
all around you.
Will you or
will you not?
What is the norm?
That which I need
to really conform?
Is that really me?
Is this where I
truly stop?
Do I keep going on
and on and on?
This is where I am.
Accept this or not.
This is who I am.
Hopelessly me.
2:05 AM 10/15/2006
When all feels lost and all hope is gone,
Remember that peace comes with the dawn.
When the storm of life comes down on you,
Look above and trust that you'll pull through.
Don't follow the path that fools have trod,
You'll soon realize that it comes from fraud.
When compromised your beliefs become,
Quite often, too late it is to run.
This is the warning that I declare,
for those who would stop, listen, and, hear;
I say, cease, desist, stop, resist.
Evil does not like to coexist.
Soon to be definitely betrayed,
Your heart is to be the one that's played.
There is never mercy, never love,
From the one who'd see you disposed of.
You probably don't want to know this
You'll probably shoot me down,
But, sadly, either way, I'm
f
a
l
l
i
n
g
for you.
My mind is a jail, thoughts of you cannot
[escape]
no matter how much I want, no, need them to.
Love is gentle, love is kind,
Love means slowly l o s i n g your mind
This must be true, because
I simply can't stop adoring you.
No matter how much I want to, need to.
I know that you don't want to hear this.
This is most likely true.
I d
I'm Brian. I'm a guy who appreciates music and art, so you'll always hear me playing music or listening to it. I love most things competitive and fun while also enjoying down time. I'm a musician and I have been playing music most of my life.
I love to watch movies, anime, read, hang out, play sports, and have really in depth conversations about anything ranging from cold fusion to silly banter. Besides my faith, friends and family are the most important things in my life. I believe God put me on this earth for a purpose and everyday I'm doing something new to fulfill the call He has placed on my life. :)
Oh, and I love to write poetry... if you couldn't tell.
p.s. The picture I put up of myself makes me feel somewhat superficial and vain. Oh well.
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Techno Operating System: 7 MP3 player of choice: 30Gb Ipod Video Wallpaper of choice: Black Favourite cartoon character: Garfield Personal Quote: "Better than ninjas"
Ok everyone. If you remember me from Angel Roms or Anime Talk please message me on here! We started a discord and we're looking for past members! Lemme know!
Ooooh snap. I haven't updated this page in a while. This seems to be the once a year page for me... or at least 6 months. Regardless, I'm doin' alright. Gonna try to write something soon for all of you people not watching me out there, you're gonna b...
I'm still alive. I'm still kickin'. The world has thrown its best at me, but I've survived and I'm definitely better for it.
I've been visiting with friends and family a lot the past year and a half and have found a new freedom in being myself. For too long was I convinced that who I am wasn't who I should be. Now that the influence that dictated those terrible feelings is permanently gone, I can be free. I can be me. It's a good feeling, really. This comfort of wearing one's own skin so freely, without fear of reprisal or reprimand.
It feels good...
:)
Now, to do all the things that I was told I didn't have the motivation to do... intere
Yo - Wondering what's up? I found some forum that I think you and Slip started to try and get a bunch of people together, and it made me wonder what everyone is up to! Hope all is well.
Dude, yeah. It seemed to start pretty well but then died like pretty quickly. I'm still trying to get back there regularly and keep it going though. How are you these days?